June

The middle of the year. The month when summer officially begins. My birthday month and the last year in my forties…

I know it is just another year, age doesn’t really bother me that much, but the last year of my forties, just when did that happen??

When I eventually move into my fifties next year, I know it will just be another birthday, I know trumpets will not sound, but it will feel like a shift, this I know. I look in the mirror these days and I know I am looking older. I want to see the skin of my twenties, tight, plump, but alas this is no longer what looks back at me. I don’t consider myself vain, but my heart sinks just a tiny little bit.

I hate to say it, but I get tired more quickly too. I am busy, but 20 years ago I could be this busy {more actually} and it wouldn’t bother me a jot! And I know, between then and now there has been a lot, a child, illness, death and oh so many good times {laugh lines to prove that!) so how could I {we} ever look the way I {we} did?

I know this post sounds melancholy, but that isn’t my intention. I actually intend, next year {every year} to celebrate life {being alive} with all its guts and glory. It’s thrown some shit at me, but I am still here, breathing and with so very much to be grateful for.

So, as I move into the last year of my forties, I salute you, I salute myself, I salute life because I am here living it when so many aren’t.

Happy June!

Sweetness

img_9665So, it’s the last day of Just Five Things, a beautiful offering from Michelle.

I haven’t been as present as I would have liked to have been, but I have been there, sometimes commenting, sometimes just reading. Every time I have visited over the last few weeks I have been touched by the warmth and the feeling of a place of safety. Michelle has a gift for creating such a place.

Even when I haven’t had time to make lists, just reading Michelle’s email every morning has been the sweetest thing. Reading the open and beautiful lists and words from those who have gathered is a delight.

On this last day I share some of my sweetness with you…

~ Hearing my son come in from college {all is right with the world}

~ Listening to him talk of the new friendships he is making with like-minded people {this fills my heart up}

~ Our dog’s sleepy face

~ A kind text from a friend

~ Witnessing and capturing the beautiful late afternoon light

Happy Friday and wishing you a sweet weekend xx

The rough with the smooth

img_9040As I lay in bed this morning reading Michelle’s letter in my inbox {which is such a delight}, it really struck a chord with me. The feeling of overwhelm that sometimes washes over us, not just the seemingly endless to-dos, but emotional overwhelm too, can be really hard to deal with…

Wind back to yesterday and I was in the middle of an emotional overwhelm meltdown. I am not sure where it came from, but it did. It was not a good day. There was shouting. There were things said. There were tears. There was silence…

Yesterday was the rough. But, with the rough comes the smooth. With the shouting comes the forgiveness and for this I am grateful. I am grateful that we don’t hold grudges. That we say sorry. That we still love through it all.

I have closed my eyes, I have opened them and I am beginning again…thank you Michelle for this timely reminder x

Forgiveness says you are given another chance to make a new beginning ~ Desmond Tutu

Gratitude Week 2016

 

Gratidute Week 2016 {Wednesday}

img_9065I had an early meeting for my volunteer role this morning and I knew as I came out of the meeting that a bus was due. It would have been so easy just to sit at the stop and wait, but instead I decided to walk and am I so glad I did.  As I made my way through the park to work under a clear blue sky and a carpet of  golden leaves beneath my feet I inhaled deeply the crisp November air and felt grateful to witness such beauty.

How beautiful the leaves grow old. How full of light and colour are their last days. ~ John Burrows

{yes, Mr. Burrows, YES}

I have love receiving Michelle’s notes in my inbox every day, they are so and beautiful and full of thought. Thank you. Gratitude Week 2016

 

Joy

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It’s been over three weeks since I wrote here, it’s flown to be honest, just like the rest of the year. It was a little break from blogging that I needed, but didn’t know I needed. We can have a break can’t we from this blogging thing, the world won’t end, it rolls on regardless and here I am back in this space as if nothing happened. I do hope you are well?

Life has been a bit busy {or maybe that’s just my head space} as it seems to get at this time of year, but all seems to be done, just a little hoovering and tidying and then I am ready for the big day {dear me, all this for one day?}. I intend to do a lot of relaxing over the next week, rest is needed so much as this year draws to a close. I won’t say I am glad to see it end, but the beginning was not great and I am hoping for more closure and lots of joy in 2016. We have a holiday booked already, so that’s a start.

I would like to thank everyone who has visited my blog over this past year, new friends and old and also for the love, light and support I have felt here. We all have struggles in our lives, I am not alone, but a kind word can mean so much. From the bottom of my heart, I THANK YOU.

I wish you JOY in your lives over the festive season and always.

Much love, Jane x

 

 

Weekends

048This weekend, Winter arrived and planted itself firmly in the middle of Autumn. With temps at zero and a biting wind, thick coats have been worn, scarves and gloves too and the cold brought a whole new meaning to the words ‘cosy’ and ‘home’.

It is this time of year when I feel most grateful for a roof over our heads, warmth, food in our bellies and when I simply cannot begin to imagine how life is without these basic things.

I feel grateful this weekend too, for our good old NHS, without which, my dad would not be recovering well in hospital from knee replacement surgery. He is so resilient, looks really well and has made friends with everyone on the ward!

I also appear to have been infected with Christmas spirit this weekend and I am very much looking forward to time off with my family and a few nights out with friends over the coming weeks. Gifts {not all} have been purchased and I cannot wait to get the decorations out from the loft. Are you looking forward to the festive season? What is your favourite part?

My favourite things are twinkle lights, looking at all the decorations we have bought over the years {and the memories they hold} and of course time with loved ones.

I hope you have had a lovely weekend and wish you a great week ahead!

Sharing my weekend with Karen at Pumpkin Sunrise, such a warm and lovely place to visit.

 

Sunday {Gratitude Week 2015}

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First of all I would like to say a heartfelt thanks to Michelle for making this week possible x

Today I am grateful for…

…the power of gratitude and how the littlest thing can make a bad day good.

…my son, for the person he is becoming, for the fact he has a voice {and style} of his own. For the way he procrastinates over his art homework, but does it eventually {and does it well}. For all he is and the love he gives…I am so very grateful.

…quiet Sundays.

…the need to carry on this practice.

…knowing that life isn’t perfect and doesn’t have to be to make you happy {darkness is always followed by light, this I know}.

Sharing gratitude for seven days as part of Gratitude Week 2015 with Michelle.

Friday {Gratitude Week 2015}

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Today I am grateful for…

…being at home {I don’t work Fridays and I love it}.

…rainbows {they never cease to fascinate me}.

…new opportunities that present themselves unexpectedly.

…weekends and the chance to relax.

…the healing power of time and the ability eventually to talk about a loved one lost and not feel like crying.

Sharing gratitude for seven days as part of Gratitude Week 2015 with Michelle. Can it really be Friday, only two more days? I will miss this, but intend to carry on privately as it has done me so much good to check in with myself everyday and really look at what I have and be thankful.

Wishing you a beautiful weekend x

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